I don't even know....

I really thought that this would be the best semester of my life. I was gonna live it up becuase I am graduating in Dec (FINALLY), but boy was I wrong. This semester started out alright, I had easy classes and was ready to get into classes but problems came up fast. First of all, there is this whole stalker thing. It is really starting to get annoying. It all started last week on tuesday during lunch where i met him. 6 hours after that he told me that he loved me and that we were going to get married and have kids one day... WOAHHHH. It honestly scared me, so i told him to back off. He didn't want to listen. He txtd me all day every day wanting to know where I was and what I was doing at all times....control freak much?! I told him to leave me alone and he would not have it so I went to the rd. The rd tried to talk to him, but I don't think it helped. He told me that he would kill himself and slit his wrists if I wasn't with him. I have the biggest heart. Of course I would never want him to get hurt, but seriously guilt me into being with you? Not going to happen. I was told not to walk around on campus alone...especially at night. Is this really happening to me?! Uh. I just wish he would leave me alone. Thankfully, I have amazing friends that are there for me, and its actually starting to get better.
Drama, drama, drama. Thats all this school is sometimes. I was close to someone here last yr, and now he is all about drama with me and I really don't want to have anything to do with it. Im tired of it. Does he get that ... no! hopefully he will be me not talking to him anymore.
This is a long complicated story, but my dad has never been in my life. Especially not for the last 10 years. Last November he was diagnosed with colon cancer that was spreading to his liver.. he wasn't given much time, and suprisingly, I was okay with that. This summer, he saw eachother a few times. And this past week, I had to call him becuase he is now on permemant bed rest. I don't know how I feel about this whole thing. I want to let him back into my life, but I just can't. I just don't know what to do! I don't know how to feel, I don't know anything. Im numb. I wish I knew how to deal with this. Uhhhh.
Sorry, I had to vent. I just don't know how to deal with all of this right now.

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