I LOVE MY MARINE!

9 years ago today, our country was being attacked. I remember sitting in 3rd period in spanish class in the 8th grade when an announcment came on the intercome, our principle was interruping class to let us know that planes had been hijacked and one was already in one of the towers. As the world stopped to see what was going on, I remember the fear I not only had in my face, but the fear and confusion in my classmates, family, and fellow neighbors faces. Although, I did not have anyone that was taken from me on this day, I knew people who were supposed to be in those towers and friends that had fathers, uncles, grandparents, and etc on the planes and in the towers. My heart ached for them. Losing someone is not the greatest feeling. As a result of September 11, we went into war. We sent several troops into the middle east to look for the mastermind behind the plan to attack America. Through the past 9 years, our troops have been overseas fighting for our freedom to ensure that we were not to be attacked again. There has been thousands of soldiers that have died fighting for our freedom and I cannot thank them enough.So THANK YOU to all of the other soldiers out there that have been fighting for us! You are our biggest heroes and we cant thank you enough! I only have 2 people in my life that are soldiers, and I don't know anyone through my family or my friends that are overseas either. So to the two people in my life, Matthew, my brother-in-law, although you are not in Iraq or any where else in the middle east, I still would like to thank you for what you have done for us! You are a great guy, an amazing brother-in-law and a great friend!


&& to Michael Wayne Maxwell, the love of my life, thank you for serving our country, by putting your life on the line in Iraq to fight for us. You are the best thing that has ever happened to me, and although you are about to go back to Iraq for your second tour, you better come home to me. I love you will all of my heart, and cannot thank you enough for the sacrafices that you have made for not only me, but people you don't even know. You are an amazing guy, and I love you baby! <3

A collection of sayings that I really love.... (they don't pertain to anything in particular) < 3

"Be strong now because things will get better. It might be stormy, but it can't rain forever"



"The only people you need in your life are the ones that prove they need you in theirs"



"Be who you are and say what you feel because those who mind don't matter and those who matter don't mind"



"I think I'm too afraid to be happy because whenever I get too happy something bas always happens"



"I hope you always find a reason to smile"



"Life is an opportunity, benefit from it.

Life is beauty, admire it.

Life is bliss, taste it.

Life is a dream, realize it.

Life is a challenge, meet it.

Life is a duty, complete it.

Life is a game, play it.

Life is a promise, fulfill it.

Life is sorrow, overcome it.

Life is a song, sing it.

Life is a struggle, accept it.

Life is a tragedy, confront it.

Life is an adventure, dare it.

Life is luck, make it.

Life is too precious, do not destroy it.

Life is life, fight for it."--Mother Teresa



"To the world you may be one person...but to one person you may be the world"
 
 
 
 
(More to come, this is all I could so at the moment)

I don't even know....

I really thought that this would be the best semester of my life. I was gonna live it up becuase I am graduating in Dec (FINALLY), but boy was I wrong. This semester started out alright, I had easy classes and was ready to get into classes but problems came up fast. First of all, there is this whole stalker thing. It is really starting to get annoying. It all started last week on tuesday during lunch where i met him. 6 hours after that he told me that he loved me and that we were going to get married and have kids one day... WOAHHHH. It honestly scared me, so i told him to back off. He didn't want to listen. He txtd me all day every day wanting to know where I was and what I was doing at all times....control freak much?! I told him to leave me alone and he would not have it so I went to the rd. The rd tried to talk to him, but I don't think it helped. He told me that he would kill himself and slit his wrists if I wasn't with him. I have the biggest heart. Of course I would never want him to get hurt, but seriously guilt me into being with you? Not going to happen. I was told not to walk around on campus alone...especially at night. Is this really happening to me?! Uh. I just wish he would leave me alone. Thankfully, I have amazing friends that are there for me, and its actually starting to get better.
Drama, drama, drama. Thats all this school is sometimes. I was close to someone here last yr, and now he is all about drama with me and I really don't want to have anything to do with it. Im tired of it. Does he get that ... no! hopefully he will be me not talking to him anymore.
This is a long complicated story, but my dad has never been in my life. Especially not for the last 10 years. Last November he was diagnosed with colon cancer that was spreading to his liver.. he wasn't given much time, and suprisingly, I was okay with that. This summer, he saw eachother a few times. And this past week, I had to call him becuase he is now on permemant bed rest. I don't know how I feel about this whole thing. I want to let him back into my life, but I just can't. I just don't know what to do! I don't know how to feel, I don't know anything. Im numb. I wish I knew how to deal with this. Uhhhh.
Sorry, I had to vent. I just don't know how to deal with all of this right now.

 <3